I don't know why or whatever has been changing me.
I'm trying my best not to buat conflict dengan dia but I can't help it.
I cried it out during History class and it was really hurting to see myself cry.
It's because I know that I'm strong and I can bear it but it's just this time, it's not my time.
I know it's hard for you tapi tahan dengan dia tau Nithya.
Thank you Nithya and Amalina.
Apa nak jadi dekat aku?
Kenapa macam gini sekarang?
Kamu letih ke? Stress mungkin?
This is going to be a short post just to express my feeling.
Hari ini Hari Jadi Nithya. Selamat 14 tahun kawan yang termulia(:
These days i have been feeling real down and real tired. Dahlah tak ada energy, nak buat penat je. If I have not been talking for you guys, please understand. Ye la tu. Lagi-lagi aku terpukul pantat si die tu, abis tu abis tu die marah. Alah, gitu pun nak marah seh. Abeh aku tak buat pape lagi kat die la. Cume kene jage tangan.
Lagi-lagi ketiak aku ni sek-sek basah. Serius! Kat bawah kipas pun gitu. Entah entah basah. Bapok la.
Aku tau la. Bahasa aku ni tak betul sangat. Ade yang campur Inggeris. Pas tu ade pulak yang melayu. Merepek la. Well at least, I did write out my feelings.
These days i have trying to be close to God by more berniat and more berdoa. Before the oral and Science test, I really really berdoa for me to pass with high marks. He helped me with everything. All i want to say is Thank you and I leave everything to you. You are the Mightiest and the most Graceful. You have faith in us whether we're down or weak. Thank you(: