new year eh.
Okay, with just a blink of my myopic eyes, it had just turned 2009. I didn't want 2008 to end because it had so much memories.
Good friends, 2F'08, good food eaten and damn good Japan trip.
I've wasted my 2008 because my dream was to get into 3F. Maybe it's time for me to look at the past and learn from it. No! It is time.
Looking behind my shoulders, my grades are really demoralizing. Zahiya suck big time.
I need to get an inspiration. But who or what? Hah, it's gonna be Kakana. Yes, it's her.
Her discipline made me motivated just a slight second. Then it's all gone.
Wait. Was it my laziness, lack of memory or lack of determination?
It's definitely my laziness and my lack of determination. Let's not blame the memories eh.
I want to slim down since the last 3 years. I want to be like Jessica Alba. Her kissable lips and extraordinary womanly shape. Okay. Zahiya you are SO gonna to slim down. Let's not get judged by the appearance, yeah? And those oh so sexy, unfit-able tee's you have not been trying out, just because of your ugly shape. No,no its not gonna be a "Alamak, that dress confirm cannot fit la." It's so gonna be "Ooh, I can fit into that into my yummy body!"
Heh. Let's not get carried away eh, Zahiya. From now on, you are going to run in East Coast Park min. 2 rounds at 4.50pm. Try to get yourself running. Ahh, I know. Mochi! It'll help me motivate. Mochi is a Japanese dessert. Soft and chewy with many flavors you can find. Slurp! Don't get yourself eating more than twice a day eh!
Oh gosh. Money. Now my mum's not working, we have to save up big time. Shucks, but it's worth it eh. Allowance's still the same. $15 eh. That means $3 per day. I've thought of saving that $10 and spend $1 a day. So if I've calculated properly, it should add up to $440 altogether for 2009. I will get $50 for my birthday allowance. So that will add up to $490. If I could squeeze in that extra $10 from my allowance, I will get $500! So there is still another $500 for my Japan Holiday. Gee, I have to wait for another year. So 2 years from now, when i get my Olevels result, I will step into Japan. Maybe Tokyo. Who knows? If I work hard enough getting at least a B3 for every subject, maybe I'll step into kawaii Japan :)
Money, weight and introduction's done. Let's step into Malay language. Damn, it sucks. I gotta read more books. Fullstop. Be like Fatin, she had read 10 books. That was impressive. Really. She's improving and I'm jealous. Ha-ha.
Studies eh. Sarah Ng had improved by alot alot. She prayed hard and willing to pass. Damn, she is good. Eventhough I do prayed hard but it didn't work. Maybe being in 3F will make me learn and probably there will be a hidden angel watching over me, helping me in every obstacle. So, I can do it!
Of all written, I want to apologize to all friends, people, acquaintances, family, and my boyfriend. It's been great and such a pleasure getting to know y'all. If I made something which you dislike, I'm truely sorry. Even though it's not direct word to your face, at least I said it here.
Zahiya can do it! Zahiya can transform herself into a better Zahiya!
